Firstly, GOOD LUCK AND BEST WISHES TO YOU GODO.
Secondly, I know the feeling Shane, in my youth, I let one go off to Australia, I fancied her something chronic but she was a mates girlfriend. Being an upstanding chap, I never ever let it be known but when I saw them off and kissed her goodbye, she whispered in my ear" you ba--ard, I have been dreaming of the day you would do that, now I'm leaving and you do it now"! She was beautiful, she had fancied me all along and then she was gone forever. Went indoors, sobbed, never quite got over it, can only remember her first name and wonder where she is now.
Still, life goes on and I found the right one for me in the end... but I always wondered what happened to Sue of Sedley House, Albemarle Road, Beckenham, Kent. 1971. (Hoping she might be a Mayhemmer) It never leaves you Shane but you gotta move on old chap... one life, make the most of it!