I've lost a few members of my family - some say before their time was due - a father at 70, a sister before her 40th, a cousin at 6 and a child before he was born. It's hard to come to terms with a life ended, .
My thoughts are with you Phil, it's the ones that survive that have the hardest job - be happy that you were a part of the life that has passed, try to remember the good times and smile. The only consolation is that they aren't suffering anymore.